Narcissism 101

AN APPLE A DAY

After 4 days of this horrible what-I-like-to-call "cold", I am off to the doctor's to have him take a look at my sinuses. Last night was probably the worst of it with my temperature reaching 101.6. I tried to watch TV, but the light from the television just gave me more of a headache (same held true with my computer). Maddy had gone to stay with my BFF Scott so that I didn't have to worry about walking her before bed nor having to wake up early to take her for her morning slash. It was a VERY quiet night in.

My sleep was off, to say the least, in part due to my dreams being all over the map - from frustration dreams, to my family being brainwashed at Disneyland (?), to being told to leave someone alone forever, to actual physical violence. My body tossed and turned so much that my sides and my back ache. I kinda feel like I just got out of a kick-boxing class.

I do hope he has something that will make this sickness go away. I can't do this much longer...

RAINY DAYS, NOT MONDAYS

I left a wedding yesterday in the best of moods - I was charged after seeing 2 people who truly love each other having the most amazing day. These two people decided at some point in their relationship that they were not only going to act upon the feelings they had for each other, but jump into the unknown - a frightening thing to do, but one that people take all the time. I mean, how bad can it be? And so far, it's worked for them.

That's not to say they won't disagree on things, or fight, or dislike each other to the point of wanting the other to disappear off the face of the earth, but they have a want inside them that keeps them fighting to stay together. If they didn't care what happened to the other, they wouldn't be with each other any longer. These two people want to be with each other.

Yes, I'm waxing romantic, but why not?

JUST GUESS...

Where would you wish to wake up? (Thanks to Towleroad for the heads up.)

TAKING CHANCES

I woke up with a clear mind and a renewed sense of self. I will not let fear get in my way. And, you're right, it's fear of failure, not fear success. Even admitting it feels like a failure...but admitting it is the first step. You gotta face your fears. (Video by the talented Daniel Robinson)

SORRY - THIS MIND IS TEMPORARILY FULL

My brain is so full right now and I go between excitement to being scared shitless in mere seconds. Between the upcoming move, getting/losing jobs this holiday season, friendships new and old...I don't know whether to smile or cry. Usually it's been the latter.

I'm trying to find a way to just stay calm and not let my emotions get the best of me and to think positively, but it's tough. I'm doing it - just not as much as I'd like. It's usually the silences that kill me, because my brain automatically goes to the dark place. Working through that as I write this now. Multitasking.

I really need a single job that I can focus on so that all the incidentals, such as various DJ gigs and scrambling to make ends meet, just fall away. It's all about the single focus.

I think I just need to be held for an hour once a week to make the worries melt away and to bring calm into my world. That's not much to ask. Can someone make that happen, please?

RELOCATION - A CELEBRATION

As the relocation of Aaron Elvis Enterprises grows closer (3 months to go), I find myself getting more and more excited. It's always good to pursue something that you have always wanted to do but were afraid to. There. I said it.

Lemme tell you something - fear is overrated. It has stopped me in my tracks, cost me friendships, relationships, made me miss opportunities that I could have had - generally killed my desire to do what I wanted.

And that was to dance. I just want to dance.

...and SCENE.

A KISS IS STILL A KISS

Why do some kisses excite while others leave you flat? My guess is the person who's doing the kissing. Last night's kiss was definitely exciting and left me wanting more.

Cue Kirsten Dunst in Interview With A Vampire.

TESS MCGILL'S OFFICE...

At 15 I began my career as an ice cream scooper.
At 16 I began my career as a movie theater concessions salesman.
At 16.5 I began my career as a restaurant host.
At 17 I began my career as a costumed character.
At 18 I began my career in retail clothing sales.
At 19 I began my career as a waiter.
At 20 I began my career as an actor.
At 22 I began my career as a video store attendant.
At 23 I began my career as a stylist's assistant.
At 24 I began my career as a bar-back.
At 25 I began my career as a bartender.
At 26 I began my career as a theater marketer's assistant.
At 27 I began my career as a film and theater marketing executive.
At 28 I began my career as a cleaning person.
At 29 I began my career as a party promoter.
At 30 I began my career as a temp.
At 31 I began my career as a DJ.
At 32 I began my career as an event producer.
At 33 I began my career as a foreign news desk assistant.
At 34 I began my career as a musician's personal assistant.
At 35 I began my career as an executive assistant.
At 37 I began my career as a film producer's assistant.

Now, at 38 I begin my career as...well, as.....

I have no flippin' idea.

Wah-wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

TATTOO IDEA #4 & #5

Once again, here are 2 more tattoo ideas/designs (here's #1 and here's #2 & #3) to be placed above my left pec. Again, discuss...

 

TATTOO IDEA #2 & #3

Here are 2 more candidates for my new tattoo. Discuss...