Narcissism 101

THIS WEEK'S ENDING QUOTE #4

Never regret. If it’s good, it’s wonderful. If it’s bad, it’s experience.

Exactly.

HELEN EMEFFEN KELLER

Came across this today and found it quite fitting:

When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us.

Pretty amazing coming from a woman who was deaf and blind, dontcha think?

VIVA LA NITA

I was inspired by DJ Nita (an amazing NYC DJ) to remix/mash-up Madonna's Holiday w/ Kelis' Milkshake back in 2004. It made it's way around the internet and smaller clubs.

Now, 6 years later, Kelis has made it part of her set. This video was shot a week ago in NYC at Club 57. (It also made it into her set at Santos Party House)

GLITCH

Ya know, for the past 3 episodes, Glee has seemed to have lost it's edge. Is it just me or do all these episodes seem like AfterSchool Specials? If I see Rachel snorting some angel dust w/ Jesse St. James and she jumps out the second story window like Helen Hunt I'm gonna lose it.

C'mon, Ryan Murphy, get back to the quick banter and lose the "you're-not-fat-you're-beautiful-just-like-that-Christina-Aguilera-song" bullshizz.

GET THIS WEEK STARTED

Opposing quotes, each perfect for this week:

When in doubt, keep quiet. -Carroll

How much of human life is lost in waiting. - Emerson

WET KISSES

I'm off to Arizona to pick up this beautiful thing. Her California adventure begins:

ROUND 3

How you like me now, huh?!?

There's more where that came from, bitch.

(Yes - I'm kickin' ass right now)

JUST DO IT

My good friend, Tyler Helms, who I wrote about when he shared w/ the world his HIV status this past World AIDS Day, is trying to raise money for this year's AIDS Walk NY along w/ his team: Impact Red. Their goal is to reach $25,000 which may seem like a lot, but really..is it??

PLEASE help by donating whatever you can to Tyler and his team by clicking here. There is an ongoing battle against HIV/AIDS and by helping to find cures, you'll know that you didn't just sit there and do nothing - you helped.

Thank you.

Thank you.

THANK YOU.

9 MO' DAYS

I am very excited to see Iron Man 2 when it opens next week. VERY!

If you are too, then here's a little something to tide you over (thanks, Ernie):

ROUND 2

It can be reported that I am being beat down from every side today, but I. Will. NOT. Give. Up.

The day is not over yet. I really need something good to happen.

ROUND 1

How quickly the optimist can get knocked down with one harsh blow. And today was going along kinda well...

Defeated by today. Back in the ring tomorrow AM. Going to bed now to have energy for tomorrow - I'm gonna need it.

INTO THE WOODS

So yesterday I got a bit lost in the woods. I've started taking paths that were leading nowhere instead of sticking to the main path that I was on. I was in a dark and scary place and was worried how I'd get back.

Luckily, I had a guide who helped me get back to where I was going and it can now be reported that I am sticking to said path and won't go astray.

This is the first straight thing I've done in a while. (**bah-doom-chee!**)

"Though it's fearful, though it's deep, though it's dark and though you may lose your path, though you may encounter wolves, you mustn't swerve, you musn't ponder, you have to act..."

SAY WHAAAA?

Sure the song is a bit repetitive and she may need to pronunciate a bit more, but this girl is insanely talented and is only 9 years old. Her name is Heather Russell and I predict we'll see that name in the future.

Kinda blown away...

THIS WEEK'S ENDING QUOTE #3

This is what gets me off my ass and makes it happen:

We all have dreams. But in order to make dreams come into reality, it takes an awful lot of determination, dedication, self-discipline, and effort.

MORTIFYING

One of the funniest shows on TV, hands down, is Modern Family. The entire cast is genius and I can't pick a favorite (which, by the way is a favorite thing of mine to do).

And one of the most awkward yet hee-sterical lines last night was from Phil talking to Cam: "One day I'm gonna be a grandfather and then everybody better hide their meat."

The gays'll get it. After the jump, see more awkwardness.

ANOTHER YEAR OLDER

This year marks a big birthday for me. I kinda can't bring myself to saying which one, but I can say where I'd like to spend it:

SYEX TAPE 2012

They're back and they've brought some delicious eye candy with them...

"You need to get on the bed and start working your Kegels..."

GOODNIGHT, DIXIE

No one gave a monologue like you, Miss Carter. Rest in peace.

THIS WEEK'S ENDING QUOTE #2

The most memorable people in your life will be the people who loved you when you weren't very lovable.

So true.

LIKE A PRAYER

Tonight I'm spinning Tom Whitman's SANCTUARY @ The Abbey w/ hostess Rhea Litre who will also be giving you a performance to remember.

Time: 9:00pm -2:00am

Place: The Abbey (692 N. Robertson, WeHo)

Cost: FREE

Come ready to dance, because that's just what you'll be doing.

IT'S OFFICIAL

I have my new man-crush for 2010. His name is Aiden Turner. He was on All My Children for 7 years and is currently on (quote/unquote) Dancing with the (quote/unquote) Stars*.  Isn't he handsome??? PLUS he's from Australia and has a dreamy accent.

And not to worry, Lee Pace, you've still got a spot in my heart.

* The reason for the "quote/unquotes" is because they're not really dancing and they're far from stars. I'm just sayin'....

After the jump, watch a clip of him being interviewed and see what I'm talkin' bout.

FEARLESS

You may be scared shitless, but you've gotta just jump in. Hell, if I can do it...

RAINY DAY, THIS MONDAY

This morning I woke to lots of fog and it looks like it's gonna be a gloomy day, so I went searching for motivation and found it in a simple quote that was just the swift kick I needed:

You cannot run away from yourself; you're always right behind you.

THE WEEK'S ENDING QUOTE

Taken from my fave quote site.

MY TRUTH

A few months ago I decided to write my memoirs, a project I knew was going to bring me closer to an amazing turning point in my life. From the moment I wrote the first phrase I was sure the book was the tool that was going to help me free myself from things I was carrying within me for a long time. Things that  were too heavy for me to keep inside. Writing this account of my life, I got very close to my truth. And this is something worth celebrating.
 
For many years, there has been only one place where I am in touch with my emotions fearlessly and that's in the DJ booth. Being behind the decks fills my soul in many ways, almost completely. It's my vice.  The music, the lights and the roar of the both people in the audience are elements that make me feel capable of anything. This rush of adrenaline is incredibly addictive. I don't ever want to stop feeling these emotions. But it is serenity that brings me to where I'm at right now. An amazing emotional place of comprehension, reflection and enlightenment. At this moment I'm feeling the same freedom I usually feel only in a club/bar, without a doubt, I need to share.
 
Many people told me: "Aaron it's not important", "it's not worth it", "all the years you've worked and everything you've tried to build will collapse", "many people in the world are not ready to accept your truth, your reality, your nature". Because all this advice came from people who I've known for a few days, I decided to move on with my life not sharing with the world my entire truth.  Allowing myself to be seduced by fear and insecurity became a self-fulfilling prophecy of sabotage. Today I take full responsibility for my decisions and my actions.

If someone asked me today, "Aaron, what are you afraid of?" I would answer "the blood that runs through the streets of countries at war...child slavery, terrorism...the cynicism of some people in positions of power, Sarah Palin." But fear of my truth? Not at all! On the contrary, It fills me with strength and courage. This is just what I need especially now that I am the father of a beautiful West Highland Terrier who is so full of light and who, with her outlook, teaches me new things every day. To keep living as I did up until today would be to indirectly diminish the glow that my my dog was born with. Enough is enough. This has to change. This was not supposed to happen 5 or 10 years ago, it is supposed to happen now. Today is my day, this is my time, and this is my moment.

These years in silence and reflection made me stronger and reminded me that acceptance has to come from within and that this kind of truth gives me the power to conquer emotions I didn't even know existed.

What will happen from now on? It doesn't matter. I can only focus on what's happening to me in this moment. The word "happiness" takes on a new meaning for me as of today. It has been a very intense process. Every word that I write in this letter is born out of love, acceptance, detachment and real contentment. Writing this is a solid step towards my inner peace and vital part of my evolution.

I am proud to say that I am a fortunate heterosexual man. I am very blessed to be who I am.

I know many of you may be saying, "But Aaron, you like penis - not punani" and "You've had your tongue down so many guys throats",  and to this I say, yes, I have had sexy time with men and I may have kissed a guy or six, but what I really longed for was the feel of a woman's touch on my incredibly masculine frame. The only Tang I want for breakfast now should be poon.

Thanks for reading and hopefully you can accept me for who I really am. A super straight stud.